i was jealous, as if the people you love were getting in the way of something, as if they were stopping us from loving each other. but the truth is you never loved me the way i loved you

i wanted it to be you.

i wish that my absence hurts you as much. but i know things haven’t been like that for you, and i hate that i didn\\\’t mean half of what you meant to me

i wish you didn\\\’t throw me away. if you ever were to come back, i\\\’d forgive you in a heartbeat, and i hate myself for that