All Unsent Messages

I read our old messages out loud, and it feels like weather inside me. Wherever you are, be gentle with yourself.

I light a candle for you on Tuesdays, and it startles me that you won?t answer. Maybe in another life, we make it. You don?t have to answer.

I mistook silence for peace, and I wonder if you kept anything of us. I?ll put the phone down now. I?m keeping the promise this time.

I wait for your green dot, and somehow the world keeps happening. I?m choosing to breathe without you. I won?t rewrite this again.

I can map the city by our memories, and I wonder if you kept anything of us. I?ll let the tide take the rest. I?ll keep making tea for one.

I hope you forgive yourself too, and it startles me that you won?t answer. Here?s to everything we couldn?t say. You don?t have to answer.

I hope you remember the good parts, and it startles me that you won?t answer. Maybe in another life, we make it. This is enough.

I hope your friends hold you close, and I wonder if you kept anything of us. If you ever need me, I?ll understand if you don?t call. That?s okay.

Thank you for the shared playlists, and I leave the porch light on anyway. I will keep the soft parts of us. I?m learning to be gentle.

I?m sorry I kept score, and I still don?t know who I am without you. I?ll let the tide take the rest. I won?t rewrite this again.