All Unsent Messages

I read our old messages out loud and it feels like weather inside me. Wherever you are be gentle with yourself.

I mistook silence for peace and I wonder if you kept anything of us. I ll put the phone down now. I m keeping the promise this time.

I read our old messages out loud and it feels like weather inside me. Maybe in another life we make it. I ll keep making tea for one.

I can map the city by our memories and I wonder if you kept anything of us. I ll let the tide take the rest. I ll keep making tea for one.

I hope you forgive yourself too and it startles me that you won t answer. Here s to everything we couldn t say. You don t have to answer.

I hope you remember the good parts and it startles me that you won t answer. Maybe in another life we make it. This is enough.

I hope your friends hold you close and I wonder if you kept anything of us. If you ever need me I ll understand if you don t call. That s okay.

Thank you for the shared playlists and I leave the porch light on anyway. I will keep the soft parts of us. I m learning to be gentle.

I m sorry I kept score and I still don t know who I am without you. I ll let the tide take the rest. I won t rewrite this again.

I looked at my phone instead of you and I keep asking the moon for advice. I forgive you. I forgive me.